the-stillborne-lover

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The Smile by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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The Smile

I look around the dimly lit room and stare blankly at the woman next to me. We've been sitting like this, working our fingers bare, flesh raw for a few hours now, and haven't even really noticed each other. She hands me what I need, I take it, like a selfish little boy and do my small part in the world. But I'm watching her now and I notice that she has the slightest little tilt to her head and a small smile stuck to her bubble gum lips. The man next on the other side of me leans over and tells me that this simple woman is crazy, that she killed someone and that's why she was working here. But I don't care, I like her anyway. I continue

A song and a smile by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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A song and a smile

The sound is liquid chocolate, rolling off his tongue like sweet cherry kisses and rain. It's a liquid sound that flows from blossom lips with such integrity I can taste it. It tastes like fire and ambrosia, the sweet nectar of words heightens my taste buds and overflows my mouth with reverence. The song is too simple but the meaning, oh the meaning is like gold. Lost temperate gold that melts into a river of self deprecating amazement that twists and turns and swallows the pieces that I have left of me, and drinks me up like a gentle elixir. I'm lost in a sea of emotions as the voice of silence slices through my very existence and forces me

The Reapers High by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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The Reapers High

Your poison is my calling the hatred makes me high the sinner's lay beside me and I'm waiting here to die The drug is deep inside this taking toll upon my mind hallucinations of this lovestruck are leaving sense behind I'm spinning to your heartfelt and falling into shock the content's paralyzing as the reaper stows his clock I'm lying here in prison that is made up of your pain the silence makes you angry so there's nothing left to gain The hatred is my lover your poison makes me fly I'm waiting for consent to let the sinners let me die

Fiction of a Voice by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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Fiction of a Voice

I'm tangled in your bed sheets again. A egyptian cotton mess of fabric pinning me to your bed by my knees. I groan disgruntledly as you fling open your musty dorm room beige curtains. You tilt your head in a precarious manner and flash me that ever so hesitant smile as you turn to your computer. "Morning." you rumble still half asleep despite the three cups of coffee I know you've already had. "Mmmmph." I reply distracted, still attempting to unravel myself from your sweet prison of warmth. I yawn and finally free myself by rolling off the mattress, just barely catching myself with your desk chair. You chuckle softly, watching me with bemu

Clue by the-stillborne-lover, literature

Story for my moral by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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Story for my moral

The angry dragon grins as she curls around my gaze she sings along my spine and sinks into my pain The demons praise the fates as they wait for me to fall they grapple at my eyes and forsake me as their doll Your kisses are too sensless as they twist around my tongue they sting the liquid silence and rip into the sun My deadly sins are laughing as they wrap around my wrists the break inside my body and bite into my risks The dying griffon screams as he suffers at my grace he digs into my flesh and I sink into his pain The story of my moral is to break before you fall to drink the blood of heavensent before you drown in

knee deep in heartache by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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knee deep in heartache

I stand in the snow, looking up towards the ill lit heavens and wishing too adamantly for a savior. I hold my hand out to catch the delicately sculpted ice and let the feelings wash over me. I'm lost, I'm alive, I'm dead, I'm here, I'm... Lonely. I sit down on the empty bleachers where we used to sit (alone) together and breathe in the stale air of winter's breath. Deep sharp pains in my lungs as I inhale the ice that once was love. My heart collides with the thought of you, and the crisp air seeps over the place where that livid organ was before you set it between you teeth. I wish you would choke on it, and let me to freeze out her

hole in my heartache by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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hole in my heartache

I ache. The burning Deep in this empty place (My heart) Is too much Let me OUT! Let me live Let me die... Let me revisit your ...Pain Save me Save you From this This This... (sin) No breath No feeling No...! Left in my He(was my)art (ache) Silence... Silent night By your side Alone and Out Into you mind (sleep) Let me OUT Let me [in!] Let me die... Let me drown in LOVE I ache.

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Thin line to you demise by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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Thin line to you demise

I walk this line a beaten path of my demise I fight refine and fall into your broken lies Rip out my heart flowing with your ribbons red don't play your harp watching what I've always said Wring out my soul dampened with your weeping moan trapped inside this role playing lovers when we're alone Lost in this maze I'll never see the dawn of day faith in haze blinding me with your foreplay I fall in time choking on this blood of mine lost words of my rhyme your path of lone divine.

Scars by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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Scars

Looking through a person's eyes and reading all the stories kept in their star-born irises is the only way to truly know someone. When looking into orbs of satin blue and gold, you will find my entire story of the life I have already lived. You will find my interpretation of what I have taken in and cherished. You will find lost love and warm kisses I have shared, deep hurt and sorrow that I have kept locked up, and you will even find something deeper. You'll find my deepest, darkest secrets, my lovely scars of the wars between me and my life. In finding my scars, inside or on the surface, the greatest story unfolds. Because, every scar

Ribbons by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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Ribbons

Watching the water run together with the sweet ribbons of red is an experience I can't ever seem to pass up. I can't help but to be mesmerized by the feeling of death. I cannot seem to pass up the chance to watch my very hands slice into the soft delicate flesh of my wrists, cannot tear my eyes away from the trail of life force fluid that drizzles down my arm to mix with scalding water, and swirl in angry patterns down the drain. I watch, transfixed, as I contemplate the mixture, musing along the lines to how much this concoction looks so much like red wine; wine mixed with the poison I contain in my very veins. The poison that has eaten

Lacquered by the-stillborne-lover, literature

Nightmare of today by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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Nightmare of today

I look around. Blearily searching for something in the darkness. Searching for the something I would never be able to see. Standing up, I brush off my knees with careless hands and start walking. Looking behind me unconsiously, I watch a shadow skulk behind the light. Panicking, I realize that I am all alone in an unfamilar place with my imagination scaring me brainless. So, like any normal panic system would tell me to do, I run. I don't think I have ever ran as fast as I am now. I look over my shoulder again and choke down a scream, my shadow has become a man. A dark handsome man with lovely locks of darkness.

Threads by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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Threads

I've found this thread of crimson and gold buried beneath your tides I can't seem to find a way to get around this time can't find my way around your pile of burning flesh this decay that you are collecting in my heart I'll never forgive you the white wind grins I'll never forget you a whisper in my smile my shadow lover holds me too close for you to breath I love this feeling of insecurities I cradle the scent of death on my sins I squeeze my lovely sorrow dry of all emotion I harbor in myself I love you I want you my shadow rips into my neck and I give into the the overwhelming darkness of the song we nev

Hang by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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Silence for the Death of You by the-stillborne-lover, literature

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Silence for the Death of You

Silence for the Death of You Please don't. Please don't go, don't leave us. Don't leave me. Please. If you die, I shall die too. We need you still. I need you. You have so much to live for, don't you see it? You have so many great things that you can do, fulfill. So many things that we don't have to even plan, we'll just go, like we always used to. We have so many memories, so many times that you could learn to live for again. What do you think will happen if you go? I will fall so deeply into darkness without you. Will thoughts of you ever leave my heart? No, they never could, I can't let go, I won't let go. I know how you n

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About the-stillborne-lover

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Deviant for 19 years

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Current Residence: Here in my triumph
Favourite genre of music: Rock, alternative, J-Rock
Favourite photographer: Joseph Lee
MP3 player of choice: i-tunes
Wallpaper of choice: Alucard
Skin of choice: Yours... Kekekeke...
Favourite cartoon character: Naraku, Faye (I want her O__o), Ken from Model.
Personal Quote: Cry me a river, build me a bridge, and JUMP OFF OF IT!

Favourite Movies

Saw, The Grudge, Evil dead (now that I am reminded), Orgazmo, Office Space...

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Sugarcult, Streamline, Third Eye Blind, Atreyu, Miyavi, Luna Sea.

Favourite Writers

Jeremy Bonaventura

Favourite Games

Devil May Cry, Final Fantasy VIII

Favourite Gaming Platform

PS2

Tools of the Trade

Blood of loved ones, mechanical pencil, prismacolor pencils and markers, ink...

Other Interests

Pain apparently, blood, Kaluha (>_< dont ever drink this straight!), boys...girls are good too

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the-stillborne-lover

Jul 31, 2005

Devious Journal Entry

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Missing my baby.  He left about an hour ago and I'm already in shambles.  He really needs to move out here. But we had fun this weekend, going all over the places and the lovely, nice raw... anyway....  O___o I've been so swamped with work I want to kill myself.  Ugh, but it pays me, so I'll have to stick with it, ne? Oh well. Useless update, sorry.  Meh -me

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the-stillborne-lover

Jul 28, 2005

Neat

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Well, neat-o. I've been randomly selected to win a one week subscription to DA. I will have to put this to good use.  *nods* I apologize for not updating often, but life has been too hectic to even consider being online. But thank you to everyone that has been here for me when I did get on.  You rock me. Oh, here are my lovely people.  If you're not on here, don't fret, just kick me in the bum and I'll put you up. yours, me ~DeathOnSilentWings (https://www.deviantart.com/deathonsilentwings):iconSmellingDeadRoses::iconmoonshadow1357::iconGoldenGift::iconLeafangel::iconShinigami-chan02::iconJos-A-wyN::icontrabannana::iconHeaven-Rose::iconSeaAndCake::iconawfuhr::iconaikasu::iconA

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Jul 28, 2005

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Wyoba

Oct 23, 2008

Long time no nothin...
Remembered this existed ect.
No straight Kaluha?
Thats weak...
Burbon for me w/ a pickle :/
It's aright...
seein how your doin
Figure you don't check this any more
Not sober...
Not caring...
Grad school is hectic
Hope all is well...

Take care

~nick

SmellingDeadRoses

Jul 28, 2005

ThankYou for commenting on my page , it is much appreciated , looking forward to reading more of your unique poetry x

provokingdeath

Jul 24, 2005

Hey! I really miss talking to you!

SkeletalWings

Mar 15, 2005

Hehehe... Kingdom Hearts fan. x] I can tell by your avatar. XD *gets hit by a rock* o_x Nyaaaah.. hewwo! x]

the-stillborne-lover

Mar 16, 2005

>__o

Yesh, yesh I am. *huggles the Rikku* But I are a yaoi fan too...

*ducks rabid fangirls* Wah!

provokingdeath

Feb 18, 2005

me loves you!!! we need to talk more... many more 2am talks! i miss them a lot

the-stillborne-lover

Feb 21, 2005

Hahaha! We do need more of those. Ugh, I've been so swamped with work! Gah!
Me loves you too!!!! <3